I am not sure how this post will go. I normally don't share these types of things on my blog. Dave has been away almost 7 months now. Some of the months have flown by and some of the months have dragged painfully slow. Most of the days, we are left just like Haylee here, barely able to keep our eyes open before we gather for prayer each evening. These last few months have had some ups and downs. We are very thankful that the Lord has watched over us. Shortly after Dave got to the Middle East, we learned that in December, he would be out a job. The baby is coming and we were stressed. I was having a hard time with following the Lords plan when it was a difficult choice for me to begin with only to have things turn out so uncertain. I was thankful for the talk by Elder Hales in the October 2011 Conference of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints where he says...
"Even with the shining examples of Job, the prophets, and the Savior, we will still find it challenging to wait upon the Lord, especially when we cannot fully understand His plan and purposes for us. That understanding is most often given “line upon line, [and] precept upon precept.”32
In my life I have learned that sometimes I do not receive an answer to a prayer because the Lord knows I am not ready. When He does answer, it is often “here a little and there a little”33 because that is all that I can bear or all I am willing to do."
I imagine I would have never taken the step of faith to undergo this uncertain times in our life if I knew how things would go. But I took solace in the idea that our Heavenly Father gives us a little at time so we are willing to follow His plan. We have been blessed that Dave has been able to stay on where he is working. He is currently the only known priesthood holder in his area, which is a great blessing to one of the other female members of the church there. We were even more blessed to learn that he would be able to stay with his same company which has allowed us to transition to his new job without changes in insurance or vacation time. There have been some setbacks as to when he is able to come home for vacation. It is looking doubtful that he will make it home before the baby is to be born. The pregnancy has been exhausting and the time spent caring for the children has been even more exhausting. But we are so excited for the changes that our family will make. Right now, I am just trying to take it one day at a time and listen for the Lord to give me a little more "here a little and there a little". Until then, I will keep passing out on the ground just as Haylee has in this picture.